Wednesday, May 25, 2011
how much i hope my life could be fairytale? since then i realize that realistic is more compatible with the society now rather than fairytale, though i dreamt for it since i was young. tiring, huh? i couldn't said it's actually tiring when i am still have a lil enjoyment with it. sarcastic, huh? yea, this is the word i am looking for. i damn fail right?
how can life don't be free from problems? all of us are having the same problem, aren't us? we struggle to survive. it's difficult to know how others think about you, i don't give a damn either. u know why? i will definitely feel upset if i do know the opinion of others about me. that's why i choose not to know. correct decision? no, i am not sure. i've been doing all sort of stupid thing to keep away from all the comments about me. sounds stupid? yea, this is indeed the truth. no matter what, this is not the main point.
i love to do double works, but seriously, is anyone glad of doing that? there must be some reasons for this. but so wtf, i don't know what's my problem! lacking of experience or what, i have no idea. nobody guide me how to do, so how would u expect me to learn from my mistakes. i am seriously speechless for what i did for the enroll thingy. it's not a big problem though, still it bring up issue to me. i am so emo, yes, perhaps i am. i just too perfectionist?
i don't mean to be like so emo, it's just that it's been ages ago for me to release all my unsatisfaction (or problem perhaps :/). i need to breathe. it's just that, i seriously hope my life could be fairytale i wouldn't have so many problems then. be human is sort of disaster, i told ya last time, i would rather become jelly fish next time as they have no brain, and perhaps no problems could be brought up. sounds so lovely right? it might sound damn funny, but this is the life i wishing for.
since i've already been a human for 20 years, can't i actually pass my upcoming life with smiles but not tears? seriously i need to be optimistist. i am getting bored of my attitude like this. so please, give me an happy ending always :)
how can life don't be free from problems? all of us are having the same problem, aren't us? we struggle to survive. it's difficult to know how others think about you, i don't give a damn either. u know why? i will definitely feel upset if i do know the opinion of others about me. that's why i choose not to know. correct decision? no, i am not sure. i've been doing all sort of stupid thing to keep away from all the comments about me. sounds stupid? yea, this is indeed the truth. no matter what, this is not the main point.
i love to do double works, but seriously, is anyone glad of doing that? there must be some reasons for this. but so wtf, i don't know what's my problem! lacking of experience or what, i have no idea. nobody guide me how to do, so how would u expect me to learn from my mistakes. i am seriously speechless for what i did for the enroll thingy. it's not a big problem though, still it bring up issue to me. i am so emo, yes, perhaps i am. i just too perfectionist?
i don't mean to be like so emo, it's just that it's been ages ago for me to release all my unsatisfaction (or problem perhaps :/). i need to breathe. it's just that, i seriously hope my life could be fairytale i wouldn't have so many problems then. be human is sort of disaster, i told ya last time, i would rather become jelly fish next time as they have no brain, and perhaps no problems could be brought up. sounds so lovely right? it might sound damn funny, but this is the life i wishing for.
since i've already been a human for 20 years, can't i actually pass my upcoming life with smiles but not tears? seriously i need to be optimistist. i am getting bored of my attitude like this. so please, give me an happy ending always :)